I'm fasting. But worse than that, I'm fasting coffee for almost an entire month. Now this may not seem like much, but a month ago, I was drinking quite a lot of coffee. It ran through my veins. I love a good americano or even just a regular cup of jo (with a teaspoon or so of creamer, I have taste buds). This was a decision I made through church, with the instructions to begin this with an intentional goal at the end. What was my goal?
Grow closer to God. There are many ways in which I could chose to accomplish this; and many ways to measure if I will reach this goal. I've decided that more time in prayer is a great goal that is attainable for me, as is more intentional conversation with others about my relationship with God.
The last 18 days have been filled with my struggling to create this new habit, I've had a few road blocks on the way, from issues regarding my technological problems (which it is really a blessing that I have them at all), to car troubles and illness, I feel like I have faced it all. But one thing has been consistent the whole time, God has been here with me. I fall down and the Holy Spirit picks me up again. I'm learning to be in a constant state of reliance. What would bring God more glory than my 100% dependence for Him to keep me from falling?
Anyways, James 1:2 came to my mind today, "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds..." Yuck. Many trials? That obviously does not sound appealing to anyone. I hate trials. I've faced plenty lately, so why would we want to face them?
Pause, and read the rest of the verse; it slaps you on the wrist. What's best for you isn't always easy, but "...because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance." As believers, we are meant to be conquerors, which means that we need the tools. By tools I mean the fruit of the spirit, as well as other strengths that help us to achieve those. My depending on the Lord through my road blocks is causing me to look for the bigger picture, I can be a testimony for God when I am living out of love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, gentleness, and self-control.
Those are my two cents for today, now I could really use a cup of coffee.
Much love
V
